By February of '73, Awakenings and its footnotes were in Colin [Haycraft]’s hands, and I had the first proof of the entire book. In February, I went to Oxford – I went to England – and I also went to Oxford to see Wystan who at that time had lodgings in Christchurch. I wanted to give Wystan the galleys of Awakenings, and he was in fact the only man who saw the galleys of Awakenings. It was a very beautiful day, instead of taking a cab from the station I decided to walk, and I arrived somewhat late. And when I saw Wystan he was swinging a watch like this. And he... and he said, 'You’re 17 minutes late'. One... Wystan was an exceedingly punctual man and... and expected extreme punctuality from others. But also, I think, his punctuality – his own punctuality – somewhat tormented him. And he told me of a recurrent dream which he used to have. There was a train to catch, very important train, crucial, everything depended on it. But obstacles kept arising. He got diverted, this happened and that happened, and he got more and more frantic and desperate. And then he saw that the... and heard and saw that the train had actually started, and it was too late to get it. And at that point he would have an immense sense of relief and he would wake up with an orgasm.
So that’s how it is when extremely compulsive people are liberated briefly from their own compulsions. I may have had my prolonged mental equivalent of an orgasm after having escaped the suicide threat and given the... the manuscript to Fabers. I really had a sort of orgasmic two months.