I remember, also, my dad, who was, I think, probably going through a difficult economic time – although as a kid, you had no real sense of this. And he'd been working all night, and he was sleeping on the sofa in the day. And I was in the living room, doing something. And suddenly, in his sleep, he called out. He started shouting. He was having some nightmare. And it startled me and kind of... I was afraid, like: what's happening? Because I'd never heard anything like that before. And my mother came into the room and, you know, saw what was going on, and calmed me down by saying, 'You know, Walter, not everyone in life gets to do what it is that they really like to do, and your father is very lucky that he is doing something that he really likes to do.' By implication: it is sometimes difficult, and he's struggling right now. But he, basically, really likes to be an artist.
And, you know, I took that in, both as the son of this man, who was having a nightmare, but also as a general principle about life, which was, sort of, surprising to me at that age. Because, as a kid, generally, you, sort of assume that people are doing what they want to do, and you learn later in life that that – as my mother was telling me – that's not always the case. We find ourselves doing things for... find ourselves, sometimes, in alleyways and corners of existence that we were surprised: how did we wind up here? Through whatever confluence of external events and our own internal drives.
But I certainly became very interested in sound and recording sound in my early teenage years. And looking back at myself, and looking at my own kids, and looking at the kids of other people, it seems that there is an age, a, kind of, a sweet spot, maybe from the age of nine to 12 or somewhere in there, where some inner compulsion, some inner drive that you have has a chance of being expressed. Because you've been around for ten years, you know, you're... you've had experience of the world, so you know certain things by the age of ten, let's say. But you're not yet a teenager, you're not yet subject to the crowd control that happens when you're overly influenced by what your friends are doing.
There seems to be a little window that opens up in those years, where something that is essentially finding a way of expressing itself. And then, as you get into teenagerdom, and the hormones begin to take over, and peer pressure starts to exert itself, you may find, 'Well, now, I have to get serious, or I have to do what everyone else is doing.' And luckily, in my case, I found a way to link up later in life, at the age of 20, with something that I really enjoyed doing when I was ten. And I suggest, as a general principle, that that might be true, or more true than not, which is that: if you can find something in life that is at least a reflection of what you really loved to do when you were ten or 11, that this... that you have the best chance that you have of really liking what it is that you're doing, if the circumstances of your life are favourable enough to allow that to happen.