What you frequently encounter as you move through from one project to the next is a kind of, cliff, at the end of a project, which you rocket off of, at high speed, and then fall seemingly through outer space. A very funny emotional period, because to work on a film, you have to dedicate very large percentage of your total resources, and the hours are very long, and the schedule is very intense, and it gets more intense the closer you reach to the deadline. And then, suddenly, it's over.
And, this is the goal that you have been working towards: let's finish. And you achieve it, and there's a momentary sense of exhilaration. And then, shortly after that, something else sets in, which is... a dilute cousin of post-traumatic stress disorder. Clearly, you have not been in a life threatening situation, maybe? Working on a film. But, there's the question of how do you get back into normal life from the place that you have been. And it takes a certain amount of time for this to happen, to metabolise all of this, and re-integrate yourself into a more normal living situation. In my case, it takes about six weeks, I think, sometimes more, sometimes less, but that's my rough rule of thumb. And, it's very dangerous to make big decisions during that six week period, because you're standards of analysis are compromised.
And, nobody every explained this to me, or us film students as we were going into this realm. So, when it first happened, it was disorienting, of course, I was younger then, and your resources are different. But, you know, after ten years or so, it began to hit. And I just, I kept wondering, what is this? This... thing?